the melon

When will we ever be satisfied in life?
hmmm

the day we make our first million dollars? no... cos then we'll want the second million!

the day we reached the position we aimed for at work? no... cos then we'll want to climb the corporate ladder higher!

the day we are able to taste the sweetness of the watermelon we have planted? no... cos then we'll want bigger watermelons! (by the way, the watermelon at our garden is growing beautifully... i'll try to post up pics later on. but if any of you have time, come visit our garden hehe =D )

the day we are able to buy the "dream" car we dreamt off since young? no... cos then we may aim to buy a jet plane!

the day we are able to perform on stage to showcase whatever talents we have? no... cos then we may aim to perform on world stage!

we always want more... i notice whenever i've achieved something i wanted to do, there is always another challenge to achieve... to maybe... prove i can be better? or am capable? or whatever la
that's life right? yeah yeah... if we dont aim for higher we'll never be better.
but when will we be truly satisfied with what we have... or what we are?

no matter how many times i've achieved a goal, i'll never be satisfied. always seem to be a hole in the soul. unconsciously always seeking for something to fill the space, fill the thirst for... something.

and then something struck.
hey, that was the thirst for a purpose.
a purpose only God can set, for us to achieve and grow.
no matter what i do here, it will come to an end sometime.
and then what?
and then only God can fill this emptiness...
the more i read, the more my heart opens up.

and suddenly, the joy that seems lost, began filling up the space again.

something truly nice to look forward to... when you know God is always storing something good for you.
at the end of the tunnel. it will always be brighter. bigger. better.

Simple Prayer

God is very... full of humour
twists our lives around so well, don't even realize it's coming till it arrived right in front of me
whatever we pray for... He will give us double, if not triple...

I think the last few weeks have been a really... challenging time for me.
although i don't fully understand the message yet, but i begin to feel things are slowly changing in my life
especially my heart, it's slowly opening up again, which i used to think is an impossible feat.
but then hor... with God, all things are possible. =D

when i prayed for a miracle on that night... it happened. yeah i know, i was being very... cautious, thinking that "oh well, just pray that the miracle will fall unto someone else so i can just be a passenger and see it happen", turns out that God has a whole other plan. He has assured that He is real and He is right here, next to me, walking me through.

never knew how a simple prayer can turn out to be so powerful. as long as it comes from the heart...
i am really glad i went there that night.
it just shows that God's plans are powerful. we will never know what's coming next.
and guess what... whatever is next, it can only be better.

i shall read more.

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and hopefully there will be less trouble.
when things seem to shine brighter, there is always some trouble brewing at the back, trying to blow you away again.
hopefully this time, i will be able to stand firm, with God's plans...

BB in Spring

opps
been away a tad too many days...
something always have to just come up and snatch my time away
and then... i became too lazy. (still am a little, lazy to blog...)

so, i shall put up some pics
=)

happy ming... =)

ok... lazy already

will post later =)

church is good today. can't wait for tuesday.

i think it will be very interesting to see what the prophets have to say about our leaders.

it is true. only God is able to do all these things.

i hope that my faith will grow stronger.

No time

spring is finally here.
and to tell you the truth, i am not very happy about it...
spring = flowers blooming = lots of pollen = bad time for sensitive nose like mine...

september/october is somehow a good time for weddings.
attended two beautiful wedding so far and both of them are very nice and gives fresh ideas~

this saturday is j's engagement party.
parents are arriving this thursday. in two days time..
seems like every weekend there are things to be done....
too many things... too little time!

watched "san cheong sau" few days ago.
i love movies with twisted endings... unpredictable.
but i really didn't like it that edison chen stared in the movie. cos i can't stand his acting skills. expressionless one. oh well

time to go.
will update with more info.
i hope.

Wash in the Morn

update:
nup, it did not rain... but it freaking had sand storm! haih.
the day when i semangat wash my car is the day the sand storm decided to visit us and turned my blue car into an orange one...
mother nature ar, i'm sorry la for whatever i did or did not do... haih


ahh... nothing beats the feeling of after washing a car in the morning.
seriously, the satisfaction is there.
seeing my car gleaming under the sun...

erm wait a minute.
why does the sky suddenly starts looking dark?

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if it rains, imma go kill myself.

see lar, never play with mother nature.
bites you back in the arse, and never let go.

house, i am

many of us get so used to our daily life, being indulged in the "way life is".
it is not easy to overcome certain issues we face in our life.
sunday's sermon spoke volumes in a certain aspect of... my life, i guess.

a house is so similar to us.
if the pillar and foundation of a house is not strong and sturdy enough, no matter how grand or magnificient it is built for, it will still crumble to the ground if it is struck by a storm.
it does not matter if the house is beautifully furnished or contains the most expensive appliances, if an earthquake strikes, it will just be gone in a second.

i guess it applies to us too.
if our heart and soul is not built on for the right purpose on solid foundation, no matter how big our eyes are or how thin and tall we are, we will still break down if we are struck by certain obstacles in life.
it really does not matter if i am clothed in the most expensive brands or accessorizing myself with the most elaborate necklaces or gucci bags, i will not be able to survive life itself just by shelling myself with the worldly possessions without an eternal purpose.

i know that i cannot rely on what i own or what i look like. i will try my best not to judge people by how they look. and i will not be tied down with financial issues because that is the root of a whole new set of problems.

i will not complain about my weight, because i will focus on my wisdom
i can't complain much about what i "own" because i will try to focus on what God has blessed me

the only regret i have so far is knowing that i gave up something close to my heart this year. the talent that i have (may have) has been pushed aside because i keep thinking about all the wrong things, not focusing on the real issue.

the word of God is indeed important, to keep us -me- in check.

haih. it's not easy to be Christ like. but i guess, nobody promised good things to come easy.

it is important to set our priorities right. and i realize we all have our different set of issues. we just need time to set our own faults right, by God's will and in God's timing. let's just give each other a little bit more time and a little bit more chances.

i know i am not perfect, not enough to make any suggestions or thoughts, but i know i am trying to be a better person.

this will end, as abrubtly as it has started.

Job is not Life

Just a very random thought. Well... not so random actually. Always have this nagging thought at the back of my head. Is it so important to know what a person's profession is?

Let's say... A is an engineer. Whatever engineer lar... Be it mechanical, electrical or even erm, whatever engineer. Does it automatically strike you that A is someone "knowledgeable, clever and stable"?

What about when B is a successful multi billionaire businessman? Would you think he is someone "intelligent, wise and... whatever-B-should-be-cos-I-dont-know" (usually B will just be -oh, that billionaire-)?

And when you know C is a a receptionist, would you go "she's just a receptionist", without wondering if she is just a nice, down to earth and friendly person?

I think the world has altered the nature of our conscience(however you spell it la) into a tight, sad, little, non-existant, annoying furball that can just be abandoned and kicked into a tiny corner of our soul. Suddenly we become judgmental individuals that do not allow anyone else to make mistakes. Suddenly, we do not allow people to shine as who they are, not what they do. So suddenly, our morality has to conform to society's standards.

As for me, I really don't care what you do. Well... if you wanna share your wealth with me, I don't really mind listening to you gloating about your job!

But at the end of the day, even if you really blow yourself up to be so capable, that is fine with me lar. But just bear in mind... I am just a simple girl who love talking to someone who appreciates me, for who I am. Not for what I do at work.

And at the very end of the day, I don't really care how wealthy you are financially. It would all be reduced to nothingness being compared to someone who is rich with love. Corny, but true.

Aiya I dunno lar. I don't care what anyone else thinks.


p.s. I am convinced summer came early this year. No more winter now. Summer invaded my space and I'm very bitter about the weather skipping spring and replaced it with summer.